Radio Chthulucene 87.9 FM

I have been thinking about the location of my radio station sporadically in between a jumble of daily thoughts about each different class I am in which is webbed together with each different responsibility I have and from that comes each different worry. The joys of being a student :P. But! I feel a lot of excitement and curiosity about this project, I want to buy a pink radio wave finder(im not sure of the name of the machine, the one that looks like a walkie talkie). The current idea that I have is to write a small collection of poems that center around code switching between familial spaces and the outside world due to clashings/uncomfortablities that comes with being an unconventional first gen daughter. I make a lot of jokes with family that I do not make with my family, I cuss much more, and am more outspoken with my emotions, especially the gay ones. A place on campus that I go to almost daily and have gone to the past three years is Moms cafe, but the thought of placing it in such a public place is scary and also feels inauthentic. I’m not quite sure why, but I don’t feel as connected to the physical space as much as I do the conversations I have had in it. Another idea that I had was to place the station in Revelle by the Keeling Apartments, I spent a lot of time here in my second year, I also think this would be a funny place considering that I have never lived on campus throughout my 3 years, but it still doesn’t feel genuine to me. I thought about this on the drive home and realized that feeling connected to spaces at UCSD is hard, and spaces intended for students with the identities I have can feel a bit silly. For instance, the Raza Resource Centro is very cool, the colors in there are bright and they have a Peruvian and Colombian flag (among others!) hanging around, and there is a section dedicated to pride too. But for some reason, it feels like just rainbows and iconic queer people situated in one corner of a room. But then I also feel like the LGBTRC is a space I have not spent a great amount of time in, but one that is very welcoming yet quiet. I think I will go around campus more and reminisce and what different spaces mean to me and where I feel I’ll be best represented.