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Currently, I am in bed sick. I missed a majority of my classes today (including LTWR 113) and have not left my room much but my one measly attempt at attending the last half of my last class of the day. I absolutely love lazy days but hate when they are not of my own accord. I can only stand my own presence for so long, especially when I feel awful both mentally and physically. Saying this, however, doesn’t mean I want to be with others, which is also weird and irritating. In short, I am in a lose-lose situation that makes me want to crawl out of my skin.

This solitude has allowed me ample time to reflect on my final project draft that I submitted yesterday. To say the least, I am frightened. Finally having an idea of what to write and putting it on the page was something I always knew I was going to have to do but I didn’t expect it to come so fast. For my piece, I wanted to draw on the language of reading between the lines or maybe even the language of silence. In my life, I have always had trouble saying what I need to say, constantly tiptoeing around my thoughts. I also have this awful habit of never believing what people say to me unless I am 100% sure they are telling the truth (I know). For some reason, I thought I could draw these aspects of myself to translanguaging as I feel the spaces in between what we say mean just as much as what we actually say. Of course, my draft was REALLY rough, but I hope that what I am trying to communicate is being communicated. I incorporated other languages too like Tagalog and Japanese and a bit of music. I feel it is all really messy but I’m glad I finally got something down. Now, after my workshop, I need to communicate with my partner in VIS147 because I feel they are not really confident in their coding/radio abilities so…yeah we shall see!

Because I missed class today, I am unsure if I am alone in this but, finding a full copy of tWERK was nearly impossible. I understand I had the whole quarter to acquire the book but I never realized how hard it was going to be to even find copies of it online! I am really bummed out I missed the conversation held in class about it today, I would have loved to see what everyone thought of it. Nonetheless, the beat goes on…