Radio Chthulucene 87.9 FM

After submitting my project draft last week and reading the peer reviews, a weight as been lifted off my shoulders and been replaced with another. I was relieved to see others recognized my intentions and feelings that I wanted to communicate. It always feels nice to be reassured especially by great writers. However, the challenge of the sound aspect has been hovering over me, especially since Part 1 of our project is already due this Friday. I was always constructing my project with the audio aspect in mind, but finally putting the final product out has me second-guessing if the choices I made will be impactful in translation.

All sounds around me feel heightened as the due date approaches. The sound of my fan that is constantly on, buzzing the thoughts of my mind out. The sound of my boyfriend’s breathing when we don’t talk. The rustling of the bedsheets as I try to get comfortable at night. The songs I play over and over again because of those 15 seconds at the end. A big part of my project is the language of silence and what goes unsaid in all that is said. Am I selling myself short by not incorporating these small sounds that mean so much to me in my project? I have found myself going back to Dictee recently. So much didn’t (and still doesn’t) make sense to me but I have been drawing so much inspiration from it at the same time. Cha keeps reassuring me yet also challenging me to trust my work. Hopefully I can gain clarity by the time I record this week.

My location for my radio will be in The Lodge in Pepper Canyon. I feel I always knew it was going to be there but denied the idea as it felt too simple. However, there is a bit of an emotional connection to that location and I wanted it to be in an area where those I care about can access it with ease.